Do you not know, I love you the most?

Hey, you.

It's been three years since you left us.

I try to miss you a little less every day, but I still love you the same.

I hope you are well, wherever you are.

I open my eyes and

see your happy, bright face. Smiling.

I love lying on your lap. 

I love caressing your soft pudgy hands.

I love you stroking through my hair.

I love you the most.

I close my eyes, remembering all those

tiny, fleeting moments which 

I have captured in my memory. 

They are the ones I live with. 

I open my eyes and 

I see you smiling across the room 

as the teacher drones on.

We share our secret jokes in the air. 

I love it.

I love you laughing at my 

silly attempts at humour.  

I love the wrinkle on your forehead

when you think.

I love you the most.

I open my eyes and love that 

you can be so overjoyed

over the silly little trinkets I gift. 

I love that you blush because 

you say I make you feel so special. 

I love that every night you call

to wish me good night. 

I love you the most. 

I open my eyes, but where are you? 

I scream and shout, but where are you?

Can you hear me? 

Why is my voice so muffled? 

Where did you fade away? 

Why did you fade away?

Do you not know I love you the most? 

I still open my eyes, and you are still there. 

I can still feel the strokes in my hair, 

the gentle caress of your hand. 

I still love you the most.

Good bye!

The last I saw you,

You looked so peaceful.

I did not know how to wake you up.

 But now I wish I had for once.

At least I could have bid you good bye.

It has been long, almost too long.

Since you stroked my hair, smiled and told me stories, of demons and fairies.

I do not know, how to tell you...

That I Miss You! 

I miss you every waking moment.

I miss you even when I do not miss you, I miss you even when I do not wish to.

How is it that you always knew what to say, to make me feel special? 

How is it that you always knew what to do, to make me feel wanted?

I know you had to leave, we all have to leave one day.

But so soon? 

Was it not part of our pact, that you would stay till i am there?

I have so much to say, so much to write.

But eternity seems such a short span of time...

For me to tell you, How much I love you...How much I will always miss you!