Time Passing By
I sometimes think my body doesn't realise I am only 28. The way it aches and pains, I feel like I am around 60, if not 70. I kid you not. I have recently started walking regularly, okay semi-regularly (hey, at least I did). I usually walk quite briskly. My aim is to make this a regular habit.
Instead of feeling refreshed after my walks, I am left holding my back as it makes me feel like 'this is the end of the world'. More than once, have I felt, 'this is it, this is how I die' while I am in the middle of a jogging track. I do not know if my ongoing periods or the fact I have Fibromyalgia can be factors in this, but I promise you the pain is not your household pain ache. Today's was quite bearable actually.
Also, my mind has been playing tricks on me. I pride in having a good memory. I can remember things from my childhood as if they are happening right now. I have always been quite lazy when it came to studying and waited until the last minute to study. But, I always scored above average. And, the main reason being, if I read anything once, I could remember it for a while without having to read it again. Now, of course, I do not expect to still have the same capability (what with aging and becoming stupider). But, now I seem to forget so quickly. I can still remember events and conversations well, but thoughts get lost. The reason I bring this up is that I wanted to write about confidence and loving oneself yesterday. But for the love of food (food is my God), I cannot remember the points I wanted to talk about.
I was talking to my sister today about how time is passing by us. I think with technology taking over lives; now years go faster. I truly believe when we lived in the analogue world; things took time and we got to enjoy them more. Now, everything there at the press of a button. Trust me I am not complaining. I appreciate the fact that due this evolution of the tech world, I can skip going to an office and just work from home. But, I feel that is making us more reclusive.
Now, what does that have to do with passing time, you ask?
I realised there are days when I do not talk to anybody. At all. And, all I have done is watch back to back Netflix shows or YouTube videos. But, then I realise days have passed since I have interacted with fellow humans or even gone out of my room.
If this had happened when I was younger, I would have seriously questioned my sanity (not that I don't now, but less). I feel like because we are exposed so much more than we used to, time seems like it has shrunk further. Now, one has to do so much more than the predecessors to feel the same amount of happiness or satisfaction.
Now, this is my opinion, and I can be completely wrong.
But, don't you think time is moving faster? I feel like it was only yesterday that I celebrated the start of a new year: 2016. My brain sometimes is having a hard time to believe it is already 11th of January. We are already almost halfway through the first month of the new year!
Sometimes, I wish I had more time, more time to enjoy the time we have now. Does it make sense? It makes sense to me, so...
I am one of those people who love to enjoy the present. I do not like living in the future much. I used to, and I have been burned so many times that I have learnt to enjoy what is, and not what will be.
I sometimes feel the present is fleeting too fast. My sister thinks I think of time passing by a little more than I should. According to her, it is because I have a fear of running out of time or even growing old. That is not that true, though. And, I will talk about that in a future post (yes, I noted it down, and now I will remember to do so).
I do not know how to explain this. It is more like; I feel there are too many distractions nowadays, to truly enjoy a moment. One thing I do hate is that while having conversations, people constantly glance at their phones. I mean come on, for love of all things good on earth, it won't kill you to not to look at the phone for a few minutes. Or, Facebook! Oh my god, I have friends who whip out their phones to check Facebook every two minutes. I mean seriously, I promise you, there will not be any breaking news that you will miss if you do not check on Facebook for 20 minutes. The cat videos will still be there and so will the umpteenth status from your ex-lover whom you stalk!!!
But, anyway, point is I feel I want to take more time to enjoy fewer things. But you know truly enjoy them before time actually runs out on me.
TODAY'S CHECKLIST:
- Exercise: 3001 steps.
- Food:
- Breakfast: None, I couldn't wake up.
- Lunch: Quinoa, dal, vegetables, fish
- Snack: Super Drink, Samosa
- Dinner: Couscous Khichri
- Study: Stanford, finished a module.
- Read: Started Mindware
- Feeling: Happy