feelings

2017 Chapter II Section 16

"What's on Your Mind?"

I feel so tired, 
So defeated,  
Having constant arguments,
Some are light, but most are heated! 

I do not know what's next, 
Or where I am going. 
Stuck in a loop,
And, it's frustrating and annoying. 

I feel overloaded, 
With thoughts and feelings, 
Everything is closing in on me, 
Even the walls and the ceilings. 

I cannot breathe, 
Someone wake me up, 
But, I do not want to quit yet, 
I do not want to give up. 

What am I looking for, 
Can someone tell?
Am I going towards Heaven, 
Or, walking into Hell?

Do I need more time, 
Or have I run out of it?
I don't know what to do, 
Should I stand, move or just sit?

I have a feeling, 
I have been here before, 
But, I feel so numb, 
And, about nothing I am sure. 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weight Training, 4000 steps, 30 mins dancing
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: None
    • Lunch: Quinoa, Dal, Aloo Poshto
    • Snack: Homemade healthy rice noodles (I hardly ate), Chia, Flaxseed 
    • Dinner: Quinoa, Chicken 
  • Study: Stanford
  • Read: The Confidence Man
  • Feeling: Torn inside