2017 Chapter I Section 13

Weigh-In Part 1

I am a ridiculously stubborn person. I know what is right for me, and I know the exact solution to many of my problems, but I do not follow them. I do not know, why!? 

Why Arunima, why, why are you like this? Why-why-why? 

So, anyway, I have decided that I need to be held responsible for my health. (Yes, that is how much I care about me, I need to be held accountable on a social platform or else I am just too lazy to take care! Ain't I the beacon of humankind?) 

This is, of course, for none, other than ME. But, apparently, this is the only way to get my brain to understand. I hope!

So, about 18 days back, I started my 'need to get fit' routine, but I haven't kept an account of anything much. So, I have decided to keep a tab on it from now on.
 
Fridays will be my 'weigh in' day. Last time I had measured was 18 days ago. Since then I have lost 2 kgs and 4% body fat. I have also lost a few inches from different parts of my body. Whoopee! :D

Though the progress is not that bad, I have not been able to get my food routine in control. More than often I eat things I am not supposed to and in quantities, I am not supposed to. 

I have been exercising almost every day, either walking or some form of cardio and, in between, also did some weights and interval training. But, they have been very Hodgepodge. 

I want to make it more regular and a little more planned. I do have a proper meal plan and an exercise plan which I had followed once earlier which were made by experts in the field (I mean a trainer and a dietician). 

I have even done my research and modified it to fit my current dietary requirements and exercise needs. I just need to follow it correctly! 

Well, here is to hoping my brain is reading this as I write it. (Yes, I think I am two persons in one, I contradict me more than anyone I have ever met.)

Anyway, these are the stats:

Date: 13/01/2017

• Weight: 87.1 Kgs
• Body Fat: 52%
• BMI: Obese Class 2
• Lean Mass: 41.81 Kgs
• Neck: 14.50 Inches
• Shoulders: 45 Inches
• Chest: 44.20 Inches
• Waist: 45.20 Inches
• Hips: 46.70 Inches
• Bicep L: 13.30 Inches
• Forearm L: 9.8 Inches
• Bicep R: 12.50 Inches 
• Forearm: 9.8 Inches
• Thigh L: 26.8 Inches
• Calf L: 15.70 Inches
• Thigh R: 27 Inches
• Calf R: 14.70 Inches

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: Fitstar First Session,  4002 Steps.
• Food:
  • Breakfast: None, I woke up at 11!!!!! 
  • Lunch: Quinoa, Dal, Veggies. 
  • Snack: Pizza! (I am ashamed but all of us felt like having pizza)
  • Dinner: Salad
• Study: Stanford. Half a module. 
• Read: None.
• Feeling: Started the day off feeling groggy and lost, now feeling more focused and happier. 

2017 Chapter I Section 12

Life & Deadlines

Do you always feel like time is running out and you have not done enough with your life? Or, that there is a particular time for everything? 

I see others around me always talking about how they are always running out of time; that they needed to do something but couldn't because there just wasn't enough time!

Now, I am no Time Management Guru, and I have had my share of 'Oh no, time is up!' moments but I find this obsession with time all around me rather ridiculous. 

This is especially when it comes to people putting deadlines on their lives, and I feel most of it is dictated by Society. Deadline to study, the deadline to marry, the deadline to having children, buying a house, buying a car, being 'adults,' doing this and doing that, etc., etc. etc. etc. 

Now, do not get me wrong I do have quite a few things on my bucket list, but somehow I do not have a deadline for any. I do not know if that makes me less efficient or more independent. You choose however you want to define me. 

I like to believe I am just me.

I am 28 now, so according to the societal timeline, I should be married with children or at least married, or at least looking for a possible future partner. I am doing none of them and have no intention of doing either. 

I am single and much to a lot of people's disappointment and disbelief, quite happy. (Now, the reason behind that can be a topic for another day.) 

As a child, I knew, I always wanted to do three things, and in the exact order I am about to write: Do my P.h.D. (yes, I thought that came first, yes, I was a genius child), then do my Masters and then my Bachelors. You see my family loves to study. We have a few gold medalists here and there, and most have a basic Bachelor in a varied array of subjects. 

So, for me doing further studies was more of a question of 'when.' 

Of course, while growing up (by now I knew Bachelors and Masters came before), I thought by the time I will be 30 I should finish my P.h.D. on T.S. Eliot. After which I would naturally become a world renowned writer (I mean but of course!!!). 

But, due to unexpected twists and turns in my life, here I am, thinking about what to do next. And, no I have not done my P.h.D. I have finished my Bachelors and Masters which was followed by a Professional Certificate. (I worked in between here and there for about 5 and half years). But, No P.h.D. I do not think that is happening anytime soon either. I mean I see some of my friends pursuing their P.h.Ds, and I feel I do not have the brain capacity to read, remember and write so much. Maybe as a child, I was too naive, but now I know better. 

Anyway, I digress. The point is, I have in all honesty no idea what the future holds for me. But, I know for a fact that if I have to start studying now for something entirely new and begin working from the bottom rung up, I would be more than happy to do so. 

I feel there is only one life, why put so many deadlines on it. I do crave companionship, but I do want to force some poor soul into marrying me, just because the society deems it proper. I do not want either one of us to suffer because it was 'our time' to marry and 'settle down.' 

I do want to have children some day ( I want to adopt, to be honest), but I do not know when; maybe when I turn 30 or 40 or 50. I just know that when the time is right I will know. 

No, I am not confused or immature or trying to sound philosophical. I have learned from mistakes. From mine, from others' and now I know, that you cannot force anything to happen, when it is not its time to. 

I do believe in hard work; I believe in patience and grit, but I also believe that our lives are not defined by deadlines. 

I feel that so many of us, do not truly live because we chase these invisible deadlines which if not met with, make us feel incomplete. 

Those are all the thoughts I have about deadlines today. I shall now go and plop myself in front of Netflix and forget about the world for a bit.

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: 6193 steps, Fit Test to FitStar daily exercises. Lower body stronger than the upper body!  
• Food:
  • Breakfast: Egg and oats pancake with green and red capsicum 
  • Lunch: Rice, dal, Spring Onion and potato curry, fish
  • Snack: 2 nolen gurer mishti, churmur.
  • Dinner: Salad
• Study: Stanford, finished a module. (Brain feels like jelly, it was tough) 
• Read: Started A Clash of Kings
• Feeling: Happy. Periods stopped! :D