good day

2018 Chapter I Section 11

Calm Down Brain 

Depressed yet happy! 

Overwhelmed yet planned. 

Confident yet in doubt! 

 

What is to happen next? 

 

I know but don't know! 

 

Brain in overdrive. 

Thoughts galore! 

Patient. But crowded with impatience. 

 

Tata!

 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: 
    • Cals Out: 1809
    • Steps: N/A
    • Miles: N/A
    • Dance: 0 mins
    • Others: 90 mins
  • Food: 
    • Breakfast: MCT oil, Cacao Powder, Stevia, Walnut Milk 
    • Lunch: Sausage, Eggs, Heavy Cream, Bacon  
    • Snack: Blackberries, Strawberries, Green Tea with ACV
    • Dinner: Bacon, Eggs, Meatballs 
  • Eating: Keto
    • Cals In: 1415 
    • Fat: 128 g
    • Protein: 54 g
    • Net Carbs: 16 g
    • Intermittent Fasting: 14 Hrs
  • Sleep: 5:18 Hrs
  • Language progress: Spanish (stuck at 25% on Duolingo). Didn't do anything.  
  • Study: I am happy with my progress today. Good girl.  
  • Read: The Hate U Give (1/52) (I haven't touched this book since I started reading)
  • Feeling: Cleaned the house. Studied all I wanted to. No cheating on food. Overall, happiness! 

2017 Chapter VI Section 26

Talks & More

Sometimes all you need to do to recharge your brain is some stimulating conversation with interesting people. I am just lucky they are present in my life in the shapes of my friends. 

I had carefully chalked out all the different things I was going to do today. I had To-Do lists and multi-coloured markers, the whole show! I was ready to conquer the day! 

Then, I sent a 'hi' to a close friend of mine and after 6 hours of talking about every aspect of our lives in the past few months, I realized I have done absolutely nothing. 

Do I regret it? NOT AT ALL! This conversation was due for months and I am glad it finally happened. Sometimes, all you need is a good long conversation. I will get all the work done eventually but the peace my brain feels right now could not wait. 

On that note, I will go and start writing a story I have been meaning to write for a while!

Tata! 


 
TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: None, ahem, well, I did walk around while talking! 
  • Food:
    • Pre-Workout: None.
    • Post Workout: Breakfast: Leftover Biriyani.
    • Lunch: Two Tortillas, Chicken curry. 
    • Snack: Blueberries, Red Grapes, Red Apple.  
    • Dinner: Two Tortillas, Chicken curry. 
  • Study: None.
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Peaceful! :)

2017 Chapter II Section 11


Psychic Dreams and Weight Training

Today was quite an uneventful day, and I do not feel like writing much. 

I slept and had the weirdest of dreams. I sometimes feel I see glimpses of the future. 

No, I am not going insane, or I do not really think I am a psychic. It's just since I was a child, I have had very weird dreams. And, sometimes some elements of them have come true. 

Some of the events have been exactly like what I would dream. Honestly, I do not pay much heed to such things. It's just lately my sleep pattern has been quite bad, and I have been having some strange dreams. Some of them seem so real with details which remind of the dreams I used to have and those of which have come true. 

I remember most of my dreams, so maybe one day I will share one of them here. 

Anyway, psychic or not, for now, I will just ignore these and move on. 

Today exercise wise, it was a good day. I love these new back exercises I am doing for my Fibro, and they are honestly keeping the pain to the minimum. 

I have been a good girl too as far as food is concerned and it has been quite a vegan day (except the little dahi I used for the lassi!) 

So, on that happy note, Tata! 

 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weight Training, 4000 Steps
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: None
    • Lunch: Quinoa, Dal, Mixed Veggie
    • Snack: Narkeli Kul, Jamrul, Apple, Lassi with Almond, Chia, Flaxseed; Muri, Chola, Boiled Potato
    • Dinner: Quinoa, Dal 
  • Study: None
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Happy, Pain is less today

2017 Chapter II Section 9

I Am a Good Girl

Today was my first day of '15 days of eating right and exercising'. I was a very good girl! 

I ate right, did my exercises but the only thing, though, I slept a lot. I do not know why. 

I just couldn't wake up in the morning. I slept again in the afternoon. But, today my pain is also a little less, so I am not complaining. 

Overall, I am feeling encouraged. 

I wanted to study a bit more today, but I feel very foggy in the head today. 

So, I will just let me have a pass today. It's fine. I know I will make it up tomorrow. 

[I know I talk to my brain like it is a child. I think it might be!!!]

Today I felt like sharing a poem. This one is very close to my heart and whenever I feel lost, or unhappy or feel like I need a boost, I read this. It is not a euphoric poem, but I just love it. 

Well, on that note, I bid you adieu! Enjoy the poem!

Tata! 

Faery Song

- John Keats

Shed no tear! oh, shed no tear!
The flower will bloom another year.
Weep no more! oh, weep no more!
Young buds sleep in the root's white core.
Dry your eyes! oh, dry your eyes!
For I was taught in Paradise
To ease my breast of melodies,--
Shed no tear.

Overhead! look overhead!
'Mong the blossoms white and red--
Look up, look up! I flutter now
On this fresh pomegranate bough.
See me! '
tis this silvery bill
Ever cures the good man's ill.
Shed no tear! oh, shed no tear!
The flower will bloom another year.
Adieu, adieu -- I fly -- adieu!
I vanish in the heaven’s blue,--
Adieu, adieu!


TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weights, 1804 Steps
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: None
    • Lunch: Quinoa, Veggies, Dal
    • Snack: Orange, Jamrul, Narkeli Kul, Cocoa Milkshake with Chia & Flaxseeds
    • Dinner: Quinoa, Eggs, Chicken Stew
  • Study: None
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Sleepy but happy

2017 Chapter I Section 5

The Day I did Nothing!

Maybe it is because of my non-stop periods for over 20 days or maybe it's the weather or maybe I am depressed or maybe, just maybe because I am plain lazy, but today I just did not feel like doing anything. 

[Note to self: I think it's becoming an everyday thing. Need to keep a check on it. *Insert thoughtful smiley*]

Anyway, the day started off in the laziest fashion possible. There was a nice breeze in the morning, and everything felt new and fresh. I felt like going on a picnic. But, I settled for a good breakfast. 

After reading and finishing my French lessons, I had planned to study, but my mind kept wondering off. I decided to spend some time chatting with my mother. She and I though had a rocky start (I mean my birth and us not being that close in my childhood) but now I consider her to be one of my closest friends and confidants. 

She was telling me about a Bengali film, Bomkyesh Bakshi and how it was quite good and I should watch it before it leaves the theaters. She had already seen it with my father, so I had to go alone. 

Going for the film alone, turned out to be a good decision. Not only did I enjoy some 'me' time, but it also gave a lot of time to observe others. 

I call myself an "artful voyeur" (Did you guess the reference? No, don't google please, come on). No, I do not take any perverse pleasure in looking at others, but I do love to observe people. Their movements and gestures and how they talk and interact with each other. 

I am not sure when I started doing that, but I love to sit in one place while the world does its thing around me. I like to be a "fly on the wall". 

With technology abound, this has become less of a practice nowadays. And, if I go out with others, I do pay more attention to the person with me, than the ones without. 

While I observe, I try not to pry into anyone's personal matters. It is of no interest to me, and no I do not sit and stare at people. I just like to imagine what lives they lead. I feel like there must be a story everywhere. 

Like, today after the film got over, I decided to sit at a coffee shop and catch up on my daily dose of Pokemon Go (I am at level 14 and feel quite stupidly happy about it). While waiting for Pokemon to show up, I noticed two young girls sitting at the opposite table to mine. 

They seemed to be in college, and they were having an intense conversation. One girl was talking quite animatedly and looked quite worked up about something, and the other one was timidly and quietly listening to everything that was being said. 

Now, I obviously do not know what they were talking about, but my mind immediately made up a story about them. 

Story: The timid girl has a cheating boyfriend, and she has finally caught him red handed. The angry girl is telling her to break up with him as he is not worth her time. He is a bad person and hurting her, and she needs to see that. The timid girl is obviously in love with him and cannot easily break up with him, and so she is feeling rather sad about the inevitable decision. The angry girl realises that and is trying to encourage her friend. 

[Note to self: I think this is too mainstream, Nah, that's not what had happened. Too Bollywoodish.]

Story 2: The timid girl has lied to her friend about something, and the angry girl has gotten to know about it. She is now angry and... (Sorry, Pokemon break)

Oh yaaayeee a Pinser, woah it has 789 CP, must catch it!!! 

Yes, caught it! Oh wait, where was I? By the time, I looked up; both the girls looked happy, and I didn't feel like going back to the sad backstory. 

I then got distracted for the next 5-7 minutes because my Lure Module had worked and there was quite a few Pokemon roaming around the coffee shop. Conveniently the Poke Stop was just a few steps away from the cafe. :D 

My mother had told me to get some 'churmur' while coming back. So, I advanced towards the 'Puchka' guy and placed my order. I waited impatiently looking for a new Pokemon while a girl and boy finished their rounds of 'puchkas'. They were talking about how lucky they are; they hit upon a Poke Stop with a Lure Module. 

No, I wasn't eavesdropping, they were just loud and close enough for me to overhear! -_-

I smirked to myself and thought, 'yeah, that's because of me, you can thank me later.' They seemed quite jubilant. I thought, 'ahhh must have caught some good ones'. 

I was about to go on another of my dream sequences when the 'Puchkawala' handed over my order. 

I decided to take the longer route home. I enjoyed walking in the garden/jogger's path in our housing complex. It was mildly cool weather, and the distant laughs of children playing mixed with the sweet smell of the winter flowers made me feel light and uplifted. I felt like a child again, full of wonder and excitement. 

[Note to self: I should start walking again.]

Though I didn't do a single thing I had planned to and ordinarily this would make me feel disappointed, yet today I end this day on a high note. I feel like my mind feels broader and oddly more focused. 

I feel like I can do anything I put my mind to! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Walked 4750 steps. 
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Boiled egg 
    • Lunch: Quinoa, Mixed vegetable, Dal 
    • Snack: Popcorn ( a little bit at the movies, I mostly got it back for Ma), coffee, Cheese toastie. (one bread)
    • Dinner: Salad
  • Study: 30 mins of French 
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Quite Happy and pleasant