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2018 Chapter I Section 10

Am I doing enough?

Do you ever get the feeling that you are doing enough with your life? 

I always feel that. It is a constant reminder/alarm I cannot switch off. 

The more I learn, the more I feel like I need to learn. The more I read, I feel like I am not reading enough. I always feel like I am not doing enough. I feel like I need to work more, I need to know more, go to more places, read more, watch more, more, more and more. 

While studying for my entrance exam for my second master's I am thinking if should I do a Ph.D. next? I have already chalked out the next 20 certifications I want to do (including a few computer software and languages) while working and/or studying. 

I feel like I have already chalked out my next 5 years, yet I feel like I am completely clueless about what I am going to do!? 

Am I going insane? 

Am I? 

Till I figure it out (which might be never)...

Tata! 

 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: 
    • Cals Out: N/A
    • Steps: N/A
    • Miles: N/A
    • Dance: 0 mins
    • Others: 0mins
  • Food: 
    • Breakfast: N/A 
    • Lunch: N/A  
    • Snack: N/A
    • Dinner: N/A 
  • Eating: Keto
    • Cals In: N/A
    • Fat: N/A
    • Protein: N/A
    • Net Carbs: N/A
  • Sleep: 7 hrs
  • Language progress: Spanish (stuck at 25% on Duolingo) 
  • Study: Going well. On track, till now. 
  • Read: The Hate U Give (1/52) (I haven't touched this book since I started reading)
  • Feeling: Being a couch potato while studying. I got my periods after 2 months so phew, and I didn't have to use medicines. 

2018 Chapter I Section 7

A little late but still a start

The first Sunday of 2018! So, I took a bit of time off writing in the latter half of last year and also in the first few days of this one. And, it was worth it. I have a lot going on and yet I feel like I am standing still. I am looking for work, trying to further my studies (I am thinking about a second Masters and trying for it) and definitely making sure I am healthier than before. It has been a struggle sometimes to lose weight and eat right. When things don't go well I always depend on food to make me feel better. I want to change that. I want to be my own support system. 

I have been trying a new way of eating: Ketogenic diet. I know there is a lot of controversies around it and initially, I was very apprehensive about it. I have to say till now it has been the most successful way of eating for me. I am less hungry and more focused. I have been able to finally go under 179 lbs in 3 years and stay there. I have had my own bit of struggle with it, but I am back at it strong. One of the things I do not like about this way of eating is that I end up eating a lot of meat and dairy products. But, slowly and steadily I have been switching over to the plant-based alternatives. One of my goals in 2018 is to eat more plant-based foods. This is not only for health reasons but I want to leave less of a bad carbon footprint. 

I have also started Intermittent Fasting. It was a struggle, a true struggle but with time I have realized because of IF I eat less junk food now. I am more aware of what I am putting in my mouth and when. Earlier I had a habit of eating chips and chocolates at 1 or 2 in the morning. But, because of the specific times, I can eat, I eat better and get the right calories in. 

I tried different forms of exercise last year; from interval training to running to swimming but I couldn't sustain any of them, and I realized because I never addressed my back issues or other health issues. And, though I would start strong with my exercises, I would inevitably fall sick. This year my plan is to start slow and maintain. Thanks to my chiropractor my back pain is minimal and I sleep better. I want to start slow with walking. I also realized I love to dance and music always makes me happy. So, I have decided to dance for 10 mins every morning right after I wake up. I have done it for a few days and that has been a good experiment. I end up happier throughout the day.

So, basically this year I will continue to improve upon all the healthy habits and knowledge I started and accumulated last year! 

Last year was good. It definitely did not go as planned and that is fine. I met some exceptional people from all over the world. And, I cannot be more thankful. This has been one of the most eye-opening experiences in my life. Seeing the same things from a different perspective can be such a revelation.

I have realized my worth and I have realized I do not need to feel worthy through other's words. My actions speak for them. I have cut off a few people from my life, people who at one point in my life made sense, made me happy but I feel their presence in my life now is more harmful. 

This is a big year for me as I turn 30 and I have a short bucket list, that I want to go through (I will try putting some of them in this blog, some are too private for me to share here, though I am pretty sure I am the only one who reads my blog).

In general, I want to be happy this year and make sure I make others happy. I do not know where I will be at the end of the year. I do not know if I will be able to do all that I want to. I do not know if I will be successful in my endeavors but I know at every single moment I can choose happiness and that is exactly what I wish to do. 

I also want to be a lot more mindful of others and the world in general. I want to give as much as possible for me at the moment and I want to be aware of my surroundings. I am slowly switching to a more minimalistic approach to life, I have started having more plant-based foods and switching to products which are homemade and more natural. I know I cannot go cold turkey overnight but I can choose to keep making these small changes this year. 

A few goals I have for myself this year: 

  • Lose the excess weight I have been carrying around for a while now. It's time to treat my body with more respect and give it the right nutrients. 
  • Read more and read things out of my comfort zone. Goal is to read 52 books this year. 
  • Meet more people. Be more social. 
  • Help out more, in whatever small way I can. 
  • Write every single day (yes, I know I have missed the first 6 days already, but hey at least I started). I want to make this a memoir that I can go back to and read and be reminded of who I am, it seems sometimes I forget that. Also, I will be tracking a lot of my food and exercise and reading habits through this. I want to make it like my own one-stop shop diary.
  • Slowly change food habits to more plant-based. 
  • Be more environmentally aware. 
  • Learn more. Be it from books, online, from people, from college. I want to increase my knowledge. 
  • Learn a new language (I am currently trying to learn Spanish). 
  • Be Happy. There are too many reasons to become sad, angry, frustrated with life, others, the world, with yourself. But, I can choose happiness over everything else and that is what I want to do more. Everything on this list are just meant to make sure I achieve this last goal. I want to be happy and try and spread that happiness to others. 

Here is to you 2018, I am Ready for you! 

Let's do this! :) 

Tata!

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: 
    • Cals Out: 1838
    • Steps: 13,823
    • Miles: 5.45
    • Dance: 60 mins
    • Others: 0mins
  • Food: 
    • Breakfast: Fried Eggs (2), Sausage, 
    • Lunch: Roasted Chicken Thigh with Salad.  
    • Snack: String Cheese, Raspberries, Home Made Chocolate
    • Dinner: Ground Beef low carb taco.  
  • Eating: Keto
    • Cals In: 1515
    • Fat: 136 g (80%)
    • Protein: 61 g (16%)
    • Net Carbs: 17 g (4%)
  • Sleep: 5 hrs
  • Study: It's Sunday man! 
  • Read: The Hate U Give (1/52)
  • Feeling: Feeling ready, bring it on, 2018! 

2017 Chapter VI Section 26

Talks & More

Sometimes all you need to do to recharge your brain is some stimulating conversation with interesting people. I am just lucky they are present in my life in the shapes of my friends. 

I had carefully chalked out all the different things I was going to do today. I had To-Do lists and multi-coloured markers, the whole show! I was ready to conquer the day! 

Then, I sent a 'hi' to a close friend of mine and after 6 hours of talking about every aspect of our lives in the past few months, I realized I have done absolutely nothing. 

Do I regret it? NOT AT ALL! This conversation was due for months and I am glad it finally happened. Sometimes, all you need is a good long conversation. I will get all the work done eventually but the peace my brain feels right now could not wait. 

On that note, I will go and start writing a story I have been meaning to write for a while!

Tata! 


 
TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: None, ahem, well, I did walk around while talking! 
  • Food:
    • Pre-Workout: None.
    • Post Workout: Breakfast: Leftover Biriyani.
    • Lunch: Two Tortillas, Chicken curry. 
    • Snack: Blueberries, Red Grapes, Red Apple.  
    • Dinner: Two Tortillas, Chicken curry. 
  • Study: None.
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Peaceful! :)

2017 Chapter VI Section 15

I am Back!

I am back, exactly a month later. I have been busy. Life has been crazy. It still is, but finally, I am learning how to cope with it. I knew there would be days I would not get time or would not feel like blogging, but past three months has been insane. One thing after the other. But, I am happy finally I have learned to deal with these new ways of chaos. 

So, in a gist, life is well 'life'ing and I am rolling with it. The fist ACP is almost over. I have started visiting a chiropractor, my pain has gone down a bit, I have been going to the gym regularly (well not so much for the past two weeks as I just started with the chiro and I wanted to give it a little break to see if it works or not), still having issues with letting go off junk food (this country does not make it any easier; good junk food everywhere), I have definitely become stronger, love life still non-existent and well overall, I am still alive and kicking. So, yeah, it's been good! :D

Today, a bunch of us from class went to a Karaoke Bar. I always wanted to go to one but never had the opportunity. It was a bit more expensive of an experience than I had anticipated it to be (hey alcohol can be expensive :P and without it singing like a mad person doesn't work well)! It was CRAZZZYYYY fun. A lot of my classmates will be going back to their respective countries after this ACP and I will miss them. When I came here I did not expect it to be this much fun. I will definitely write more about my experience in a later blog. 

Okay, now I am tired from all the dancing I did while I was singing. It was the best form of cardio I have ever done! 

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: HIIT (Soco), Jumping around for 3 hours while Karaoke (I believe it is considered as cardio)
  • Food:
    • Pre-Workout: Quest Bar 
    • Post Workout: Breakfast: Starbucks turkey sandwich.
    • Lunch: Chicken Strips and Beer battered fries, Beer, Donut.
    • Snack: In n Out Animal Style Fries.
    • Dinner: Coco Curry & Beer. 
  • Study: Stanford (Financing Innovation: Valuing Projects and Firms), UCI (ACP: Business Administration)
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Happy. I want to make sure to blog every day now.

2017 Chapter IV Section 5

Homework & Assignments

Wow, it's been a while since I blogged properly. Each and every day has been so tiring. I am still getting used to working out early in the morning and then travelling by bus and then classes the whole day. 

It's been a few years since I had to travel in public transport so my body is not used to it. And, the walks up and down the bus stands after exercising have been excruciating. 

I am enjoying my strength training classes. I will talk about it more in another blog. 

It's been a long day today. But, a happy one. 

To many more like these! :)

Tata!

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

Exercise: Strength Training, 11k Steps
Food:
Breakfast: Oats, Vanilla Almond Milk (pre-workout), Purple Tortilla, Egg Whites, Frozen Veggies
Lunch: Whole Wheat Bagel, Cream Cheese
Snack: Blackberry, Baby carrots, Purple Tortilla, Ghugni
Dinner: Salad, Fish
Study: UCI ACP intro
Read: A Clash of Kings
Feeling: Feeling tired but happy

 

2017 Chapter III Section 26

Day of food and happiness

Today has been a happy Sunday. My special work seemed to have gone well; now I am hoping it sees fruition.

After the work, I finally got to indulge in a Double Double and Animal Style Fries! :) I have waited for a while for it. It is yummy! :D

It was followed by a small cup from Yogurtland and washed down with Iced Boba tea from this cute place nearby. 

Now, as my sister and I watch the umpteenth episode of White Collar and eat a handful of high-quality chocolate, I am ready to call it a day! 

I have too many thoughts running through my head, and I am constantly getting distracted by them. 

I need to re-start my meditations. I need to sit quietly with just me and just let the chaos settle down. I have to remember I have life plans and no matter what I have to keep going forward. 

You can do everything in your power, hope for the best and prepare for the worse. The rest will happen as it is written to be. 

On that philosophical note, I am off to bed! Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weight Training, Packing
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Pasta, My veg sauce, Keema
    • Lunch: In and Out Cheeseburger, Animal Style Fries, Yogurtland Yogurt, Iced Tea Boba
    • Snack: Diet Canada Dry, Small bag of Chex Mix, Tavana Chocolate
    • Dinner: Rice with eggs, Chicken Curry 
  • Study: None
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Hoping for the best

2017 Chapter III Section 25

Day of babysitting and rest

Day 2 of aunt (she calls me tatta :D) and niece time! I love cooking for this child, she loves food as much as I do! :) I love the sheer joy I see on her face when she eats. :D

Also, the way her face lights up when she sees me and runs to me saying 'tatta'! The joys of being an aunt! :D 

Running behind her has been a constant source of happiness for me today! But, I feel completely wiped! Phew.

I was so happy when my sister suggested we order a pizza and just watch some television and relax. [Have to say did not enjoy watching Iron Fist. The main actor wasn't up to the mark really! Disappointng.]

Well, I have a big day tomorrow. Something fun is cooking up. Let's hope it goes as I am wishing it to. 

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Today I am a couch potato
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Bread, Boiled Egg, Peanut Butter, Jam
    • Lunch: Chole, Brown Rice
    • Snack: Chocolates 
    • Dinner: Domino's Thin Crust Pepperoni pizza, Diet Canada Dry
  • Study: None
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Lazeeeee

2017 Chapter III Section 24

Buuuuubleessss

I feel like a child today. My one and a half-year-old niece (my friend's daughter) is visiting us, and it is so much fun. 

Firstly, I love babysitting her. She is a bundle of joy! :) 

Secondly, she is making my inner child come alive! 

One downside of being a grown up with a back problem, running behind an over-energetic child can be exhausting. 

My back and feet are super heavy, yet my soul feels so light! :)

With a smile on my face, I go to sleep. Tata! 

[P.S. I felt like a superhero when I blew a few bubbles at the park, and all the kids ran around up to me as if I am performing magic!]

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Running behind an energetic child, 8k steps
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Cheerios, Almond Milk
    • Lunch: Enchilada, Rice, Beans
    • Snack: Veg Burger, Fries
    • Dinner: Sushi
  • Study: None
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Tired yet Happy! :)

2017 Chapter III Section 21

Meal Prep & More

Hello hello, it's been a while since I have written properly. I will take the time one day to edit in everything in the previous blogs. I kept writing a log of everything so I could write but every day at the end of the day I would get super tired and not be able to write! :( 

I have been so tired since I got to Irvine. It's been almost a week and a half since I reached. And, every day it has been something or the other. 

Had to get the room set up, then bank account, this and that. Small and big things just kept adding up. (I will edit in every detail in the previous blogs.)

Most of the things are ready and done, and I am getting used to living here. Residing in a new place was a bit of a worry for me since I have a tendency of falling sick easily in a new setup. But, till now (fingers crossed) everything has gone smoothly. 

I have noticed my cough is gone. I was sure that it was the pollution back home that affected my cough. And, Irvine is super clean, so I think that has been good for me. 

The weather is a bit cooler here than I am used to, but it has been quite pleasant for me. I love my daily walks here! 

I have been eating right too. But, I wanted to do a proper meal plan, and today I spent almost 6 hours prepping for two week's worth of food! :)

I am feeling tired, but now I am so happy. Now, I have to follow it correctly and get healthier.

I also want to go back to properly writing every day.

One day at a time! I have a few plans I need to get my life on the right track and now to slowly execute them! 

Let's do this! :)

Tata! 

[P.S. Just realised it's raining outside and I love the smell of wet earth! :)]

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: 6k Steps, Cooking all day (oh yeah it's a form of workout when you do it for 6 hours!)
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Cheerios, Vanilla Almond Milk
    • Lunch: One & half White Tortilla, Homemade Chicken curry, Egg Bhurji 
    • Snack: Blackberry, Mio Electrolyte, One piece of Brown Bread, Hazelnut spread 
    • Dinner: Brown Rice, Salad, Chole 
  • Study: Stanford
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Feeling inspired and motivated!