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2017 Chapter III Section 21

Meal Prep & More

Hello hello, it's been a while since I have written properly. I will take the time one day to edit in everything in the previous blogs. I kept writing a log of everything so I could write but every day at the end of the day I would get super tired and not be able to write! :( 

I have been so tired since I got to Irvine. It's been almost a week and a half since I reached. And, every day it has been something or the other. 

Had to get the room set up, then bank account, this and that. Small and big things just kept adding up. (I will edit in every detail in the previous blogs.)

Most of the things are ready and done, and I am getting used to living here. Residing in a new place was a bit of a worry for me since I have a tendency of falling sick easily in a new setup. But, till now (fingers crossed) everything has gone smoothly. 

I have noticed my cough is gone. I was sure that it was the pollution back home that affected my cough. And, Irvine is super clean, so I think that has been good for me. 

The weather is a bit cooler here than I am used to, but it has been quite pleasant for me. I love my daily walks here! 

I have been eating right too. But, I wanted to do a proper meal plan, and today I spent almost 6 hours prepping for two week's worth of food! :)

I am feeling tired, but now I am so happy. Now, I have to follow it correctly and get healthier.

I also want to go back to properly writing every day.

One day at a time! I have a few plans I need to get my life on the right track and now to slowly execute them! 

Let's do this! :)

Tata! 

[P.S. Just realised it's raining outside and I love the smell of wet earth! :)]

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: 6k Steps, Cooking all day (oh yeah it's a form of workout when you do it for 6 hours!)
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Cheerios, Vanilla Almond Milk
    • Lunch: One & half White Tortilla, Homemade Chicken curry, Egg Bhurji 
    • Snack: Blackberry, Mio Electrolyte, One piece of Brown Bread, Hazelnut spread 
    • Dinner: Brown Rice, Salad, Chole 
  • Study: Stanford
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Feeling inspired and motivated!

2017 Chapter III Section 8

Here we go

The first leg of the journey starts today.

I have a lot to do, 

A very long way to go. 

 

Be with me Thamma, (Dadu, Dimma too)

You are my God, Goddess and all! 

With your strength and the love from others, 

I know I will succeed. 

 

I need to win this one, 

Not only for me. 

But, for all those, I want to fight for. 

 

Give me a chance to get my voice, 

So, I can shout for others.

 

May your love, blessings and prayers, 

Make me the Human I wish to be! 

Tata! 

[Note: I am currently flying across the world.]

 

2017 Chapter III Section 3

Then & Now

[Today I am not doing the weigh-in as nothing has changed since last week as I was sick the whole week and I truly want to talk about what I have written below!]

As I pack my room and get ready to leave on a somewhat long journey, I keep finding my old pictures. I have never been comfortable in front of the camera as much as I am behind it. But, on these rare occasions, somehow I willingly stood in front of a camera and let someone take my picture. 

When I see my old pictures, somehow I see how much I have changed. I have evolved. Most of it is good, but there are things which I loved about the old me, which is slowly disappearing. 

Anyone who sees my old pictures would always point out how thin I was at that point. Earlier it used to bother me, but now I think I have grown a much thicker skin! (quite literally I feel)

When I look at these pictures, I see a more innocent me. I see how so many people so easily used my naivety. I have always been one of those 'helpful' people. I have on so many occasions, done things for others even when it hurt me or delayed my work. I used to do that even with no thanks in return and sometimes after I helped I would hear rumours about those very people talking bad behind my back. 

But, I have obviously learnt. 

One of the things I miss about old me is I used to be a less angry person. I am not sure if it is because of my current situation that has turned me into an old grinch or I am slowly turning into one. But, I do get angry quite quickly nowadays. And, I do not like it. 

I have always hated anger in general, and now I hate it that I do that.

I obviously miss the fact that I used to be quite slim. But, I am more confident in my being than I used to be. I might be the heaviest now, but I have the most confidence in me than ever before. 

I have realised my heart is still the same. I still feel the pains I used, and now I feel them even more as now I understand the truth behind those betrayals. 

I have always had a wall around me but now it is a lot more inviting yet a lot tougher to break (I do not know if it makes sense to you as it made to me). 

Let me try to explain: I do talk to more people and am in general less judgemental (I was very idealistic before), but I do not jump forward to help each and everyone as I used to before. I have become a little picky about whom I let into my heart completely.  

Anyway, I think I still have a lot more growing to do! And, am quite happy with the me that I have become. I just always hope to remember where I have come from and where I want to go! 

On that note, Tata!

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weight Training, Packing
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: None
    • Lunch: Macher Paturi, Rice, Aloo Gobi
    • Snack: Lactose-Free Milk, Coffee, Cupcake
    • Dinner: Luchi, Kosha Mangsho 
  • Study: Stanford 
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Nostalgic. 

2017 Chapter III Section 1

Packing & More

It's been a while since I have written a proper blog. I was not well for a long while. It seems I had severe chest congestion. 

After many antibiotics, gargling and other medicines, I am feeling much better. 

Due to the medicines, I was a little woozy for the past few days and so avoided writing anything. 

Today I spent most of the day packing. I will be leaving next Wednesday for a year to study abroad. 

I am superbly tired, and so I think my excitement has been a little low. But, I am looking forward to being a student again. 

I will be back with a proper blog with my thoughts and emotions. But, for today, that's all! 

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weight Training, Packing
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: None
    • Lunch: Murighonto, Rice, Maacher Bora
    • Snack: Pre-Run drink, Lactose-Free Milk, Double Egg Roll
    • Dinner: Murighonto, Rice
  • Study: None
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Packing, packing, packing